It’s been awhile since I’ve last posted in here. It’s just that there’s been a lot going on in my life as far as love, school, and working. I’ve been pretty bad with posting, but currently I’m taking a class which I dick around in, and maybe this will be my day to keep things updated.
Winter break just came and went this year, and it’ll probably be my last one. I can’t say that I did anything amazing, but there were a lot of big happenings going on for me during this month. To start, there’s the major drama on the year end. For all of my fellow LJ readers who’re pretty good friends in me IRL may have noticed that I changed my relationship status.
Now this wasn’t about something stupid and miniscule, it’s the fact that shit wasn’t as it should be. I want it to be clear that everyone knows the truth. Ruben is a great guy sure, and he’s funny and pretty friendly. Underneath all that is someone pretty selfish who is only repeating his mistakes in life. I won’t go into detail about everything but he was just being shading with other guys behind my back. It’s enough that he cheated on me during out first year and lied about a lot of things during the duration of our relationship – this was just too much to deal with and there’s no way for me to put it behind me and move on.
I’m doing great now actually. There’s nothing in the back of my head that makes me think about going back with him or even considering his being or whatever. There is one thing however that’s killing me; he just seems to be posting all over everyone’s page to be super friendly with them and messaging my friends as well. This was never the case before, why are you doing this now? I guess it’s rather selfish of me to think that my friends should look/think of him in disgust as he was such a deceiving person.
Anyway, I want to close this entry with something positive.
He motivates me to work hard and exercise. I also feel like he’s such a positive influence on me, which is something I haven’t gotten from anyone – no one comes to mind.
I’m taking it slow – learning and growing with each other. Ruben likes to think he is a rebound/joke.
The jokes on him I guess haha.